Donner O'Brian.

I forgot how difficult caring for a newborn is. Ugh. I'm so tired and my boobs are killing me! Luke eats like a pig, let me tell you! Still, it's more than worth it and he's beautiful! More pictures coming soon, I promise!

How is everyone?

Errrrm, I'm thinking that hospital visit would be a very good thing right about now.

Boy-thing!

I think we should take advantage of the fact one of our eldest just got married and go away ourselves. Even if it's just for a weekend or something.

I fancy something hot and wet. Ideas? :D

You Are 11% Pure

You're definitely not pure. In fact, you may be one of the most evil people who's ever lived. Remember, good little girls and boys go to heaven. But bad little girls and boys go everywhere!

\o/

Oh hello cravings. Oh how I've missed you. *dryly*

*curls up into a little ball and whimpers*

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Oh my God people!

I'm actually LEGAL!

*giggles!*

Happy birthday toooooooooooo meeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Must not take smack.
Must not take smack.
Must not take smack.
Must not take smack.
Must not take smack.
Must not take smack.
Must not take smack.
Must not take smack.
Must not take smack.
Must not take smack.

(Repeat until it ACTUALLY SINKS IN. Fuck you, fucking cravings!)

Yeah, I think I'm pregnant again. Time to take a test me thinks.

Janey? You wanna go do that too? *laughs softly*

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] Have I affected you? How?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Are we close?
[13] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14] Do you wish I was more fun?
[15] How nice am I?
[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[17] Am I loveable?
[18] Do you think I would ever kill someone?
[19] Describe me in one word.
[20] What was your first impression?
[21] Do you still think that way about me now?
[22] What do you think my weakness is?
[23] Do you think I'll get married?
[24] What about me makes you happy?
[25] What about me makes you sad?
[26] What reminds you of me?
[27] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

I'm not even sure why I'm writing this, I mean it's only going to upset people but I can't get my head around it. I know I shouldn't be writing it here, I mean it's not even in my universe or anything, and I know it wasn't exactly MY fault, but I can't stop myself. I'm so fucking confused, because I know that if the other me hadn't... then I don't think all the other shit that followed it, would have happened.

I want to talk to Cherry, but I don't want to upset him and I know that it will. I already hurt him irreparably in the other universe, I don't need to do it in this one too. I just... I don't know, I really don't. I am craving, badly, but what if I... I don't want to get clean, but I don't want to die either... I want to be his wife, and bear his children and that is a scary fucking thought... not...being his wife so much as the children, the looking after of another human being, fuck, I can't even look after myself! He means too much to me for me to hurt him, even though it was unintentional. He means everything to me, and for me to write that out, or say it out loud even though it's obvious with every breath I take... it's... it makes me blink. But I love him more than I think I admit to myself half the time, and definitely more than I can put into words with him.

Wow, I'm being candid, even without the smack. Guh.

And then there's this universe, where Cherry is with me, and we're as happy as two junkies are likely to get, and Caz and Janey are together and happy and having a baby, and it's how things are meant to be, how things were always meant to be and even though we are a bunch a junkies, there's so much more to all of us and we are happy. Sure we hardly know what day it is half the time but we're happy, and I don't want to fuck that up like I did in the other universe. Sure Cherry is happy there, and Caz and his wife, and Sweep and his almost wife, and Janey... with her baby that isn't Caz's that STILL makes me feel more ill than it should. Does that make me selfish? That I KNOW that they're as happy as they CAN be and yet... I want what we have now in this one. Not that I have any say in that universe, I made my choice, I lost, I bought everyone else down with me when I fell.

Ugh, why am I thinking about this? Should just go outside and smoke, or go and see whether I can score a hit. I'm sure there's something somewhere, even if it isn't smack. Do we even have any in the van...

What color is your soul painted? Red Your soul is painted the color red, which embodies the characteristics of love, strength, physical energy, sex, passion, courage, protection, excitement, speed, leadership, power, danger, and respect. Red is the color of the element Fire, and is associated with blood, life and death, birth, volcanoes, and intense emotions.

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You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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